I posted a picture of myself recently and for the first time I actually got reblogs. I checked who had reblogged it and for my surprise the picture had been reblogged by a man (probably aged 25-30) who’s tumblr consisted of porn and, um…porn. I told my boyfriend about it and he got angry, obviously, and we started talking about tumblr and my pictures. He asked me why I uploaded pictures of myself and I told him that I didn’t know, that I liked to upload them and that was it. He said that wasn’t the reason and I got angry. Then he said something like “You started doing it because of your low self esteem…people told you that you’re beautiful and it made you feel happy. You gained confidence. But now you upload pictures expecting people to tell you that you’re beautiful. You keep uploading this pictures and you know they’re going to say nice things. Your self esteem is better now and you’re not sad any more, but you keep doing it because you like it when people compliment you”. That got me thinking…and he’s right. I mean, to be completely honest I actually uploaded them expecting nice comments, knowing that I would get compliments. I’m not saying I am not insecure, because I am, but my self esteem is muuuuch better. At first I needed those comments to get me through the day because I was completely insecure and if you guys didn’t say something like “You’re beautiful” or “You look lovely” I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror without feeling the need to look away. But these past weeks I didn’t need those comments…I wanted them. See the difference?. Now I feel like an egocentric, selfish & conceited bitch. And I want to apologize…for somehow using you guys to boost my ego or something. That’s it…I just don’t want to be a conceited bitch and I rather get comments on what I write than on pictures of myself. Idk.